Home Sweet Home

Yes, I am now home!! Wahaha..what a wonderful feeling it is. Just to be home with mummy and my brothers are the kind of therapy that i need after 4 months of exhaustion in UM. I brought home hopes of collecting at least RM50 donations for my project. tihihi..i'm so taunted by the idea of handling a really, really big project next semester. Man, why did i ever got myself into this mess. Christmas is coming soon, but it is still less fun now cause grandpa is gone. I kinda miss him now. It's true what people said you know; we will never realise the importance of that person until he's gone forever. .
Ooh yeah...about this guy that i'm really interested with. He used to have long hair but the latest view of him really melts me. He's cut his hair into those cutie pie short hair.. Haha..seems like he got that vision to cut his hair from somewhere and obviously not from me as i never talked to him anymore since last semester. huhu..

Less one burden...

How do I start? Let's just say that i'm in super duper mood now because i've managed to get over educational psychology paper without much trouble and hasle. Haahha...Now, i can care less one more matter in my life..I'm So Over It...like Katherine McPhee said.
I'm now preparing myself for poetry paper dis evening at 3 pm which is going to be conducted at Dewan Tunku Chansellor of UM. Phew...i've yet to revise any notes because you know, the paper is at 3 pm. Come on, i'm not dat much of a bokworm to study so early as all the information will be lost by the time i started answering the questions. Kih2...
Man, i just can't get rid this excitement of going home..In fact, next thursday by 3 pm, i'll be taking my nap soundly at the comfy of my home sweet home and mummy's cookings. I do wish that time will fly faster so that i can get home even earlier and sooner. Oh yeah, did i mentioned that i've met someone who i haven't see for this whole semester? I saw him at the Bangunan Peperiksaan today while i was waiting for Edu. Psycho. I kinda miss him actually. And, he's looking supa kawaii with that new hair cut..
Well, gotta go now. Need some sleep as it's 5:08 am, 7/11/08 now.

Quite Happy

Last night, 29th of October 2008, my friends and I went to this Rumah Terbuka Sarawak bersama Ketua Menteri Sarawak at PWTC. Ha...It was fun. Lots of Sarawakians from within the vicinity ofKL nd other adjacent cities, especially varsity students came. I met a number of new people. Ismet Elisca...But my biggest surprise was when i met Christopher Boreh there too. I saw him first. His face is so familiar, yet i kept it to myself before asking Vivilin. Then, when we were waiting for our bus back to college, Chris came to me and said hi. Hahah..he still remembers me...Tihihi
If the wireless is ok, i might post up some photos here...Hehehe..C ya in another post

Integrity Much..

Hmm..Being a varsity student really exposes you to a whole new vibrant and colourful of race mixtures. People from different races mingling here and there together. But, despite all this openness, there are some people who keep on clinging to their own race and states. It's okay by me unless they start to condemn those who chose to be more open and friendlier. Thus, making us feeling bad.

Speaking of integrity, i personally believe that when it comes to being friendly, you will be friends with just about anybody from every corners of this world. So, i don't believe that if one of your friends hate this person, then you are obliged to follow suit and hate that person either. For me, this is bulls***. This only shows how shallow our personality is. It is better to know a person before making any assumptions, rite? Would you like it if people hate for no apparent reason? Putting ourselves in somebody else's shoes help us to understand this situation better.

And, everybody, i believe, is trying their best to keep up with the pressure of today's materialism. Most are willing to spend all their money on something they don't need or even afford, just to show that they are capable of doing so too. Recently, some poems that i've been studying with Dr Sharifah Aishah make me think twice and really make me reflect on myself. I think you guys should read those poems too. They're "The World Is Too Much On Us" and "Composed on Westminster's Bridge". Both poems were written by William Wordsworth.

Another thing, Malaysians are supposedly famous for their friendly cheerful face with Cheshire cat-grin. The truth is, some Malaysians are terrible. They don't even make the slightest effort to return back your smile. It feels like as if you're smiling to a wall. Sigh...To add pain to the wound, some of us are very prejudice and pesimistic.

Think about this ya.. Bubye!


I'm stuck again to Educational Psychology class. Huh..This is like a torturing chamber for me and it feels like 10 years in hel. ahaa...i m counting days to go back for the semester break and i've asked my mum to buy the tickets and now i'm just need to prepare myself for final exam and then pre-packing my stuffs. I can hear Jingle Bells around me!! They're coming close...Just 2 months and 2 weeks left before that much coveted day of the yea for us Christians. Hehhhe....


Hye y'all. Okay, it's been a very busy week for me this week. First, i had to submit 3 assignments on the day. I escaped my Proficiency class to finish up my Poetry assignment. Then, on August 29, my friends and i joined our college's parade in our intravarsity natinal independence's parade. Then, last Saturday morning, we competed in the 'kolum' competition and got 2nd place for it. Then, from 8 pm until 11:45 pm, we spend the time playing games and other stuffs to wait for the 15 minutes before entering into August 31st. At the last 2 minutes, all of us gathered in front of the big screen in Dewan Sri Tanjung. There, we counted the last 10 seconds and......MERDEKA! MERDEKA! MERDEKA!
We had so much fun and happy moments on that day. We had some photo sessions. We all went nuts and all of us were GK's. Hak2.
After the whole countdown thingy, we went to KFC to eat because my roomates and i haven't taken our dinner yet.
Ok that's all i've to report. C ya in another post to come. Nite nite.

Am I angry? Yes, i am.

Huh...i don't know what else should i say about the wireless connection in my beloved college, that is 9th college. Before the 1 week holiday, the connection is like always there or at least i can get connected after 1 am. Now, it's like 'you can see me but you can't get me' kind of way. i can get to the logon page but once i key in the username and the password, it will say 'Login failed'. Huhuhu...The connection is supposed to be super duper fast and clear during the holiday since there are only a few of us on the college. Surprisingly, it is the other way around here. Help me...I nid my wireless to keep browsing my email and most importantly, my Friendster. hahahaha...

Speaking of a nice moment, this morning a cute thai guy talked to me while i was trying to get connected to the wireless. And the fact that he's a future doctor really pumps up his hotness level..Sssss..That is what we call as 'gatal' in malay.

I better of signing out now for i need to fetch my niece from kotaraya. she's coming over to spend a night with me at my college.


My stomach has been growling since morning. It has been two days since i last had my proper meal which have rice in it. For these 2 days, i've been hanging on pieces of bread and peanut butter. So, finally, priscilla and i went to the pasar malam in section 17. I was like really craving for rice that i quickly grabbed nasi goreng ayam and a cup of orange juice. we bought some satay as well as some fried chicken butts. Wahahahaha....In the end, we couldn't finish all the food we've bought. I can finally sleep in peace tonite since i've stuffed my belly with loads of food. What should i hv for tomorrow? Huhuhuhu...doing my assignments is so annoying cause i can't look for the right answer to give to my lecturer, especially on my Poetry's assignment. Huh...Anybody knows what the poem Tramp actually means? Help me!!!kah3.

i'm feeling a lil bit homesick. To add to my homesickness, my cousin sms-ed me and asked about my days. I can't wait for this semester to be over so that i can finally be with my family again. Nowhere is better than our home sweet home. Not even the best 5 star hotel in the world.

Ooh yeah, i finally got the chance to give some comments of my Friendster's friends. It's been a long time since my last comment. Obviously, studying takes a lot of our time.

well, what can i do? That's what studying is all about. You're supposed to study!
Okay, bye for now.

P/S : i'm downloading Kabhi Kushi Kabhi Gham from Youtube. Boredom is taking over me by the minute!

An Experience of Excitement!!

Okie, today is Monday, August 18, o8, obviously. My clock shows it's already 10:19 am. I had a very nice sleep last nite cause of the fun i had with some friends last nite.
We went Kotaraya and Mydin last nite. Okay, you may think what's the fun part about that? Everybody goes to Kotaraya. The thing is, I drove there. Me, with 0% knowledge of the KL roads, decided to take the kamikaze kind of courage to drive there with 3 friends; Rita, Priscilla, and Maureen. The first thing we did was to pray for a safe journey. Our journey to Mydin is okay. But, when we were going out of the parking lot, the car i'm driving slipped down and i almost hit the car behind me. Luckily, i managed to pull over and said sorry to that guy. Then, i pressed the gas pedal hard and we went out of Mydin. Everybody was silent for a minute. Then, we came to our sense. hahaaha...Scary huh..
After Mydin, we went to Section 14. We did some in prompt tu shopping there. Then, we had our late dinner at one of the eating outlet. One thing that made us laugh all they way was the sound the car made. The car is like a man's car with all the big Vroom sound. So, everytime we get out f the car, people looked at us in awe since they don't expect GIRLS to be coming out from the car. Maintaining our coolness and as embarassing as it is for us, we headed straight for the eating outlet. I had mee goreng mamak and a glass of iced milo.
Burp!!Oopsie..After filling our hunger pangs, we went back to college and had a nice rest. Nikki came to my room and we had a sleepover.


It's Sunday and as usual, there's nothing really interesting has happened in my life today.
I woke up at 7 and get ready for church. Priscilla and I went to the church together and had a very religious hang out. To my surprise, we walked to the church with this cute guy. I used to admire him but after he shaved his head, my admiration for him was gone with the wind. Muahahahaaha...i never like baldie, especially if they are not suited to be bald. God gave us hair, why take them away? Hey, it's my humble opinion anyway. I guess, it all depends on our personal view of things.

For the 1st time today, i spent really long time YM-ing with my friends and my niece. There was a lot of gossips, swearings and funny words. Hahahha...holiday is the only time that i can sit down and chat with my friends. I even managed to get on their nerves. Hahahah...sorry guys, i just love to do that.

oopss, gotta go...a friend is coming to my room. Her block is having a water shortage and she'll be taking her shower in my block. Hehehe

See u in the next post...Adios!!!

Much needed break!!

Phew...At last, the one week holiday is coming. I have been waiting and anticipating for this break all the time. This is the much needed break from all the hasle and the hectic life from UM. But yeah, as much as i would lurve to spend the whole week realxing and pampering myself, i have to wake up to the fact that i have to finish doing 6 assignments during that break. This means 1 assignment per day!!!

How am i going to go through these?
My roomates went home today, leaving me all alone. It's not like i've never been alone before, it's just that i'm so used to hear them laughing and crackingk jokes. The silence of my room is quite soothing actually. I can just lie on my bed and let my imagination take the lead. hmm...

I am now counting days for my trip to go home. It's still 3 months away, but i am already having a bad homesick. I don't show to my friends though. What irritate me the most now is the fact that i no longer can access the internet from my room. I am always connected to the wireless, but i can't seem to login. I don't why!!! And it has to happen during my need of getting information from the Net. Huhuhu....

Challenges of Life

Hmmm....last friday (25/7/08), my friend, Liyen and I went to GSC to watch Journey To The Centre Of The Earth 3D version. Brendan Fraser is in it. He's a hunk. That was a real good watching experience. All those 3d effects really blew me up.This was exactly the thing i need before my future lectures, especially my educational psychology class. I don't hate this subject, it's just that the lecturer really creeps me. He is like the supedigger of information. He can make 1 question into 100 different questions.
Every single day after that class, i ended up whining about it to my roomates. Argh...i never feel this for any class. i was very into lectures and tutorials, but this is the only class that i wished i never have to take.

Life..Never Ending Journey.

These are the summaries of my life since the last 3 weeks.

June 19, 2008
Grandpa passed away. I was the last person in the house to see him alive since i nursed him immediately when i was home for my semester break. Cousin who was on his way to give his last respect to Grandpa joined Grandpa to meet their Creator.

July 1, 2008
Another Grandpa passed away. That makes 3 persons from my family passed away just in 2 weeks.

July 6, 2008
I was supposed to catch a flight at 1:55 pm to KL. Unfortunately, due to my brothers, i missed that damn flight and i had to purchase another ticket. So, i flew back to KL on the 8:50 pm flight. Landed in LCCT at 11 pm and arrived in KL sentral at 12 am. Fetched by my friends to my college. Hah...i was terribly exhausted.

July 7 - today
I caught a terrible cold and sore throat. I also coughed a lot. It was hard for me to talk without sounding like a rocker. On july 7, my friends celebrated my birthday 2 days earlier. It was fun until one of them poured tapioca flour on me and my other 2 female friends. We screamed like hell..But yeah...it was a fun memory that i will never erase from my life.
Ooh yeah, i met one of ex-roomates in a post office earlier today.I really miss them, especially when it comes to their laughters and jokes. Hehe..

Well, it's 2:30 am now. I guess should hv my sleep.So, i'm signing off now. See you guys soon.


What a bad day!!

Hmm...it's been a while now since my last post. This morning sumthing bad happened to me and my niece. Here it goes. We are supposed to go to the local town and get some stuffs for my uncle's sundry shop. Okay, happily as it is for us to drive ala Tokyo Drift (Wink..) all the way, suddenly i noticed that the ride is going bumpy. So, hey, i decide to pull over and checked the wheels. Nope, nothing's wrong. So, i caried on with my driving. Then, the bumpiness come again and this time it's worse. The car felt like it was going to throw my niece and i out of the car. So, once again, i pulled over and voila! There's the problem. A punctured tyre with a lot of air coming out with a 1 cm hole. dang!! Here we are, with nobody's one the road so early in the morning. we're doomed!. But, there's always a light at the end of the tunnel. Luckily, we pulled over in front of the house of somebody. luckily enough again, they came back from doing their early morning shopping just in time when we were about to burs into tears. So, he helped us to change the wheel. Before you jump into any conclusion, i want you to know that i myself can do the job IF i know where to put the jack. Haha..so, the guy helped and we offer to pay and he refused to take the money. Nice!!
after all that thing is done, my niece and i drove as soon as possible from that place as everybody who was passing by looked at us and we don't want to be the freak show. so, here we are now.



Hua....it has been 2 weeks since my last scratch on my blog. I missed my blog so much!! Huh...being away from a source of wireless connection is such a pain in the a**. Heheh...Okay..Gawai Dayak Celebration is just around the corner. This is the time that i've been waiting for the whole year. It's the time of the year where i get to see and meet a lot of new relatives and visiting fren's home and have a chat wif them. It is more like Christmas but honestly i enjoy Gawai Day more because not everycelebrates, hence making it a special celebration. I am listening to Reflection by Christina Aquilera Bratman while making this post. Kistening to this song really does makes me think about all the memories and incidents that i went through this year. some of 'em are sweet and memorable and soma are stuffs that u wish u'll never remeber for ur whole life. coming of age ( i'm turning 21 dis July 9) doesn't do much work to me. I still act like a stupid person, rarely believing my own capabilities, always get myself in sticky situations, and a lot of other cases. Humm...i wonder when will i be more matured.

Now i'm listening to Hero by Mariah Carey Cannon...i'm putting their recent surname here. wow...mariah's marriage to nick cannon was a shock to me..it happened too fast. When did they ever hitched up? When did they even meet? When did they say the magic words? When? When? When? Hahaha...

I watched E! a couple of days ago about Britney. Wonder here is she now? I really pity that gurl..She was like the epitome of beauty and stardom back then and now look at what happened to her? i was never her fan but in this case i do pity her. she lost her children's custody and i heard that she is dating a photographer/cameraman...the latest i know about her is that she attended Jamie's baby shower.

Anyway...that's all folks. I'll write more and more in my coming posts. Tata!


Okay..Everybody should know what Internet safety nowadays. We should know it by heart and practice it. I just checked out my fanbox.com mail and then a guy chatted with me. He asked for my number and i said NO! But, he keep on insisting and urging me. for God sake, cut it out dude.. Plus, he wants to meet me which is like the biggest NO NO in internet safety book. Why can't he understand that we r not supposed to meet or contact those we barely meet and knoew from the internet? It's a different story if i actually know him, but the thing is i just know him like 15 minutes ago and he is already pulling my legs. I can't just bark at him and say 'Buzz off!" cause that would definitely hurt him..Hahaha...That's one of the types of people that we will meet online. People may have good intentions at heart, but we'll never know for sure because they are still strangers, no matter how good your online-relationship is. It's way too risky if you were to believe somebody that fast.

Enough nagging.. For the past 3 days, i'm been a loyal chaffeur for my cousin. I sent her to work and i fetch her mum from work too. This is what i have been doing for this whole week. I thought of getting a job but my mum said no. Geez...i've never really experienced real job before. The closest i got myself was when i became a babysitter. and that was for my cousin where it still felt homey to me. i need a job that brings me outta the house and maybe stay in a dorm or even drive to work. hah...i guess i will have to wait until i finished my studies, huh? whatever...i'm enjoying every single moments of my holiday in kampung anyway. There's not much place to hang out, but hey, it's home sweet home. Couldn't get any better than that. hahaha...So, last monday i went to my scool which is SMK Tun Abdul Razak in Kuching. I met 3 of my teachers. I met my PA teacher (Mdm Aslina) and my Biology teacher (Mdm Wong). Then, i met Mdm Jamai'yah, who regularly went to school with me. Then, my cousin who is teaching there as a substitute treated us at the school cantin. I helped myself with a bowl of laksa sarawak. Umm..yummy. The school haven't changed much except for the parking lot is a lot bigger and flowers were there too. even the doors of the assembly hall were changed..Cool...
That's it, i'm off to my loyal and beloved TV extravagant. Bubye.

New Addictions!!!

Okay...i'm happy to tell that i know have two new addictions ; blogging and fanbox.com..these are cool man..i have never thought that i will be enganged to blogging activity, don't even ever imagined that i will be a blogger...guess that's what we call the 'call', huh? then, fanbox.com frenzy came to me via one of my YM buddies...first, i thought it was ridiculous cause i have never heard of it before..but now i think it's cool. I get to know people from around the world faster..(cliche, ain't it?) whatever it is, somebody please help me to deal with these addictions...I just can't stop. okay, now i am going to talk about the most memorable event for me for my 2nd semester in 9th college of UM.

On April 11, 08, the Cultural and Welfare Association of Borneo or better known as KKKB, organized an event called Malam Serumpun Borneo. I was one of the performer that nite and i did sing quite a bad version of our KKKB's theme song. I sounded like an ill moose but some complimented my voice..Awkward..

But hey, forget about my singing..the nite went well and all of us were satisfied with our efforts considering we had only 2 weeks for the whole thingy and we were also busy with our revisions and all. after the whole event or as i love to call it 'post-party event', me and my seniors and batchmates took quite a number of photos. there was a lot of comic snaps, my friends making funny faces, we were displaying our traditional clothes ( i was very proud of my Bidayuh clothes), we laughed and of course, we ate A LOT!! i ended up feeling bloated for like 2 days. wahaha...Nevertheless, it was a fun and wonderful experience as i got to mingle with friends from borneo..i can even say that i feel at home with them. Hehe...Here are some of the pictures from that night.

These gurls are sisters. they came from the same town as i am. but, i forgot to ask for their names.. Huhuhu
Me and my senior. she's from Sabah and her name is Rebecca a.k.a Becky.

From left : Priscilla, Maureen(senior), Well, Nikki and me.
and finally. again, from left (standing) : Alan, Me, Elvenna (senior), Maureen (Senior) Halimi (senior), Rita (senior).
Down : Kenny (senior) and Priscilla.

1st Day of Independent...

Yes, today is my first morning in my home, my favourite cyber cafe (JP Computer Centre). Chatting with my YM buddies for a while..Yesterday, something really tense happened to me.
Well..yesterday was the infamous day of my homecoming.. Okay, everything went smoothly. I hop into the plane, the plane took off, the plane landed on Kuching International Airport and bla3. While waiting for my luggage, i saw many faces. There were my mum, my two brothers my cousins, my nephews and nieces. Such a crowd to welcome me home. Then, my mum took me and my brothers to open-air eating outlet. This place is in front of the Elektra House (established in 1965)...gosh..i can even remember the date...creepy rite? Okay, back to the point. So, i had my lunch at the open-air. After that, we went jalan2 until SUDDENLY!
My mum's ride started to feel like as if it's coughing. You know, when cars are sick. So, my mum pulled over and checked it out. To our surprise, the car's radiator was completely out of H2O. The engine was steaming. So, we had to park our butts by the road. Then, my brothers went to buy some mineral water from the Boulevard (or Bulu Lebat as i love to call it)...i feel like crying in despair cause i didn't see this thing coming..I was so happy to get home and then this thing just blew the mood away...the cool thing was that i was so helplessly shameless to sit by the road and became the 'freakshow'. kahkahkah...But...

Some more, the fun of being home is no longer with me because i just learned that my grandpa is sick. He is not the grandpa that i used to know before. He was a cheerful person, was able to carry logs of trees that are 2-3 times heavier than time. His health is degrading day by day...Now, he is bedridden, appetiteless and very quiet. I miss my old grandpa..Mummy told me that grandpa cried when he was informed that i am coming home. He's 91 now. I have to face the reality that grandpa will go back to our Father sooner or later. For the time being, i am going to be a good granddaughter and treat him to his last breath. Father, bless my grandpa and let him to be with us longer. Amen.


Yehaaaa.....i am now at the LCCT,,,waiting for the moments to be home...wahahaha...finalyly. for two months i am going to be free of UM, kolej n every stuffss...


Okay, i have just finished my 1 paper of the day. It's my last day of the final exam but the worse part is that we have 3 papers in a row today....Sigh..never thought that this sem is going to be really packed. But still, i can always rejoice because tomorrow is the day that i have been waiting for the entire semester...I am going home, to the place where i belong. wahahahaha...kih3....

Moral is now a thing from the past for me....nevertheless, i have more to study next semester. who cares anyway? Next semester is another story....the present is now, just in front of me....

Mummy....i'm coming home...

I can't wait...

Sigh...At last, i managed to get over my dreads of Falsafah..Yeah, i didn't answer the questions well but at least, now I can breath easier. I can now concentrate on my Moral, Prose and PJK paper. But, the thing that i can't wait any longer is the day that i am going back to Sarawak. My homeland!! A place like no other!!!Wahahaha...I'm getting crazier each day just to think of it. Mummy, I can't wait to see you after these 4 long months...I miss you!!I miss your cookings, I miss Allen, I miss everything back in our 'kampung'.


This is my first sentence for this blog!!!!